Nespresso @ Williams Sonoma

Why did I have an espresso inside a Williams Sonoma store? It was free.

I also had a quarter of a meatball that they were cooking in the tear kitchen.

Calories? 50? 75?

Chickpea dinner

Pita - 170
Hummus - 80x2 = 160
Falafels - 40x4 = 160

Total = 490

I'm done for the day.

The Up Band by Jawbone

So I have this personal tracker called the Up Band, right? I can't find the charger for it so it's dead but I'm gonna use the food tracking part of the app till I can order a new one or find the damn charger.

I've got about 500 calories left for today if I want to lose weight.

Breakfast and lunch

In my 30's.

Now that I'm officially in my 30's, I feel the pressure to act like an adult and possibly even a role model to others.

It's the difference between an iced latte and iced tea. Now we go with the tea.

Last night's last meal:

154.6 @ 9AM; I turn 31 today.

Pretty sure that being overweight at age 31 is something that millions of other women have experienced. I'm not the first.

Happy birthday to out of shape, overweight me.

Coffee, croissant, rice and diet coke

I'm doing something wrong here.



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Does love make you fat?

Yes, yes it does. This explains the 20 lb gain! I shall now blame hot boyfriend!
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2386754/Why-falling-love-makes-FAT-Two-thirds-couples-stone-getting-relationship.html


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152.2 : 30"x30" jeans

Today I feel really gross.

Day 4 : no progress

I haven't been to the gym once. I have not stretched. All I feel is stress and depression. I can only get up and go to work and hang out between 7-11pm with my super sexy boyfriend. 

What's wrong with me? Why can't I dedicate myself to this task of health? Why am I stuck in a cycle of perpetual gym avoidance? Why does doing anything but going to work and coming home seem like a chore or a waste of time? Why can't I make time to cook? 

Borderline obesity is hard to change, you don't feel as motivated, you don't see a point, you still fit in your fat clothes so you don't need to go buy the plus size clothes yet. 

I need a haircut so bad but I don't want to reward myself till I do something worthy of reward....like go to the freaking gym.

Gym shoes

I left both pairs of my sneakers at work in Friday. That makes it impossible to go to the gym and run or do the elliptical. Instead I'm gonna do some ballet stretches in my living room.

Day 1: 1475 to maintain.

Today my mother and father came to visit, indulging their desire to celebrate my birthday by coming to NYC and sitting inside my apartment. All day. My mother brought with her pork tenderloin, butter-slathered carrots, butter-slathered green beans, mashed potatoes, creamed corn and a gluten-free chocolate chip cookie cake. I wanted to cry because it was a heavy midday meal that I wasn't prepared to eat. Not to mention the fact that I hadn't cleaned the house, taken out my Christmas Tree (yes, it's a month after Christmas, I know.....), nor had I showered or had my first cup of coffee when they arrived. 

My mother recently went on a gluten-free and low histamine diet and lost 40+ lbs. Now, many would say, "Wow, that's great!", but to me it's been frightening. It's only been since September. 40 lbs in 5 months. For someone who wasn't obese, that's a great deal to lose without incorporating any exercise. I don't want to go about my own weight loss in the same way. Small adjustments, with exercise, so I can feel healthy and keep the healthy going for the rest of my life.

What's the best ratio of exercise to diet to lose and maintain? Well I'll just start with my Basel metabolic rate and work back from there:

1475. Just to put that in perspective, I work from about 10:30AM-8PM. But I wake up at 7:30 and probably go to bed at 12AM. That's about 16.5 waking hours. And a Caesar salad with chicken is already 430 calories. About 1/3 of my day. Lesson here? No more Chicken Caesar salads?

Maybe just a modified version without store-bought dressing?

Back fat.

Just wanted to throw in a "before" back fat ass photo! I think this angle has a lot of room for improvement! Let's do squats!!

Borderline Obese? No way!

In the last 16 months, I've gained 20 lbs. I turn 31 in a few days, and I hate to say it, but I look as old as I feel. (No lie, I feel awful.)

Today I'm telling the internet that my love affair with laziness is over, and even if I lose my job or get made fun of by friends who keep telling me weight loss is simple, I'm gonna blog my way to heathy like hundreds of thousands of other woman hitting milestone birthdays or events in their lives. I need the accountability. My skinny, fit, carpenter boyfriend doesn't have issues with weight or fitness.









He's a thin and sexy 6'4" maybe 190lbs? I am 5'1" and 156.2 lbs. that .2 matters right? That's a weigh in that I did a few minutes ago wearing plush socks, leggings, a T-shirt and a sports bra. My short frame has a BMI of 29.5.

Borderline Obese.










Let's say that again.

Borderline Obese.

And now. For the official "before" photos, so you know I'm a real person with a real body. I still feel like it's hard to view my body as nearly obese. But I definitely will begin this journey with an open mind about how to change myself and my body.