Day 4 : no progress

I haven't been to the gym once. I have not stretched. All I feel is stress and depression. I can only get up and go to work and hang out between 7-11pm with my super sexy boyfriend. 

What's wrong with me? Why can't I dedicate myself to this task of health? Why am I stuck in a cycle of perpetual gym avoidance? Why does doing anything but going to work and coming home seem like a chore or a waste of time? Why can't I make time to cook? 

Borderline obesity is hard to change, you don't feel as motivated, you don't see a point, you still fit in your fat clothes so you don't need to go buy the plus size clothes yet. 

I need a haircut so bad but I don't want to reward myself till I do something worthy of reward....like go to the freaking gym.