Cholesterol of 175

My LDL levels are extremely high. 175. That means all this bs I've been posting was probably just chapter one in a defeatist attitude toward healthy living. Now my body and my arteries are begging me to take care of them.

I'm really not sure how to feel, cause honestly I feel gross and impossible to cure. I feel like my life is kinda messed up and I'm probably gonna die alone. I'm probably gonna get fatter like my grandmother. I'm probably gonna have a heart attack unless I do something now to change the way I live.